Tiresome

[Verse 1]
Girl
Words are in vain
Liquor in my brain
Kisses with disdain
But I'm
Used to letting go
I've felt this way before
Heartaches ain't a problem
For me no more
We would never put up a fight
Toxic moments I tried to deny
When we didn't see eye to eye
Normal behaviours often had to be justified

Maybe
No one's innocent
We're just dissonant
'Cause

[Pre-Chorus 1]
Life's a blank book being written
Where actions don't tend to be forgivеn
You decide what is being fillеd in
Good and bad that's the way of living

The sum of it's what matters
End decisions are always harder
Reading back on your old chapters
Avoiding those same wrong patterns

[Chorus 1]
Let me fall if I must
The one I am becoming will catch me
I was raised from the dust
Forgetting 'bout dreams that keep haunting
Like

[Verse 2]
The way she said:
"You look sad as fuck
You are always crying way too much"
It seems like
She don't mind
What I go by
Or the things that I'm holding
Back

To popping pills
Popping bottle
Hanging out with girls who think they're models
Don't give a damn 'bout being modest
Snapping pictures that they're feeling proud of

[Pre-Chorus 2]
Life's a blank book being written
Where actions don't tend to be forgiven
You decide what is being filled in
Good or bad that's the way of living

None of this really matters
I guess you had your own answers
With no need for false warnings

[Bridge]
You wish you'd known better
I shouldn't have let you
Wake up in my bed the next morning

[Chorus 2]
So let you fall if you must
The one you are becoming will break free
You put me once above it all
Dealing with thoughts gone voiceless