Off The Shelf

(Spoken Intro)
There’s gonna be some people who will not like this one

(Verse One)
I’m barely threads after twenty five years
From constantly crying to masquerading my tears
Doesn’t matter that I’m facing and living my biggest fears
Doesn’t matter that I dream of bullets in between my ears
As long as I am smiling and my mouth says “I’m okay”
As long as they wake up tomorrow and I live to see the day
And I keep my head on shoulders because they say that’s the only way
They all will grab their forks and knives and take turns stirring up my brain

(Chorus)
You say that you need me
But you just need something from me
If you don’t need something from me
You just don’t want to see ugly
But I’m ripping off my face
Cuz they already curse my name
And if I do not play their game
Then I’m already out the frame

(Verse Two)
I’m barely hanging on after eighty thousand heartbreaks
And with childhoods like mine, it’s soothing when the world shakes
Like a mother rocking baby, if there’s stillness then I’m a-wake
I used to be transparent but the world made me this opaque
Cuz they only like the dolls that are shiny new in package
They only want to play if they’re the one ripping the plastic
And they’d buy the little add ons if they wanted all my baggage
But, I’m put back on the shelf now that my limbs are not elastic

(Chorus)
You say that you need me
But you just need something from me
If you don’t need something from me
You just don’t want to see ugly
But I’m ripping off my face
Cuz they already curse my name
And if I do not play their game
Then I’m already out the frame

(Bridge)
You don’t know what you are to them
Until they put you on the shelf
And take you off when they so please
It becomes such familiar hell
When dust is caking on my flesh
I’d take the bones out of my limbs
Just so that I can bend again
And cater to potential whims
When you are hungry to be held
You might fall into hostile hands
And getting out is tooth and nail
They don’t want you to take a stand
But somehow still I balance
Based on their own expectations
And I’m feeling all the pressure
Of their heavy affirmations

(Outro)
So, yeah, I’m fucking angry
And I’m sick of being weak
But also sick of acting strong
When I just wanna feel defeat
Don’t want to stay because they said
But, I won’t leave because of them
And I can’t tell them how I feel
So I whisper it to the pen

(Spoken)
Fuck this shit