Shadow

Here I am
I’ve done this all before
My body shakes my heart will race
I’m lying on the floor
I can only ride this out
Till my mind wears me down
Like a torn up journal entry
In pieces in the dark
To me
You are no stranger
You’ve been here my whole life
But always fail to make me braver
Internal sabotage
You’re a like a ghost without a cause
Lingering inside my head
You haunt me

And I hide you with a smile
To make them think that I’m alright
But I know that I’m a liar
Evеry time I say I’m fine

Cause you follow mе
Every day you’re right behind me
You make my life feel so god damn empty
Like I don’t even matter
You twist my thoughts and all of my mistakes
Block the light out make me feel insane
You’re just like my shadow
Cause you’ll always follow me

Here I am
I keep trying
To shake this twisted obsession
With hurting myself
But you always undermine
With judgement you disguise
Everything I’ve ever done
Like I’ve failed everyone else
And I
I keep wishing
That someone someday will save me
From this pain that keeps me living
But love is no solution
Cause it can't fix it all
And in the end I need to same myself

So I’ll hide you with a smile
Just to function all the time
And I know that I’m a lair
When I say that I’m all right

Cause you follow me
Every day you’re right behind me
You Make my life feel so god damn empty
Like I don’t even matter
You twist my thoughts and all of my mistakes
Block the light out make me feel insane
You’re just like my shadow
Cause you’ll always follow me

I didn’t want them all to see
Me broken down like this
But the consequence
Of running just to exist
Is only suffering
Oh I can’t hide

Cause You follow me
Every day you’re right behind me
You Make my life feel so god damn empty
Like I don’t even matter
You only make Mistakes
Block the light out make me feel insane
You’re just like my shadow

Here I am
All I have is hope
It’s a lonely shred of light
In a dark and empty void
I’ve got reasons to believe
In what I will achieve
I’ve put my faith in a childhood dream
Cause I’m more than a shadow
And maybe one day I’ll be free