Tired

I'm so tired of all the pain
I've been living through all of this time
I know that I'm not gone just yet
I need to just say that I'm fine

I am so tired
Of all the pain
It's making me lose my brain
I'm going insane
Some people think we the same
But can they do what I do and shoulder the blame

I don't even know how I should feel
When I'm not certain that this is all real
I talked to the devil and we made a deal
To hide all the scars I hope to conceal

To hide all the suffering
That I've been just covering
With false hope and a fake smile
So no one will be wondering

How I really am
Tryna open me up like a program
Like
Like
Like
Like goddamn I wanna be alone
Like goddamn I'm really on my own

I'm so tired
I'm so tired
I'm so done
I'm so done
Maybe I'm numb
My problems are scary so I just wanna run

But what do I do if it catches me
What do I do if they happen to see
The side that I don't wanna be
Cause they mocked my beginnings like I'm rock lee

I don't know
I don't know
Life isn't fair
I wouldn't dare
Face my problems unprepared
Cause They are something I will always fear

You could have stopped at the first lie
Maybe I wouldn't have a need to cry
Or start to feel numb like I wanted to die
Buying some rope I'm learning to tie

tired of all the pain
I've been living through all of this time
I know that I'm not gone just yet
I need to just say that I'm fine

I'm so tired of all the pain
I've been living through all of this time
I know that I'm not gone just yet
I need to just say that I'm fine