GRANDPA'S INTERLUDE (feat. Mariah Michelle)

Confused
Thinking bout the times
You encouraged me to shine
Cursed is my mind with
Hospital beds and all of these patients lying
And loved ones sitting watching em die
Nothing we can do, just feeling the pain on the inside
Wrestling, thoughts of pain that i simply despise
Death don't make sense
I need your presence, Lord please do not hide
Your word is my light
But i'm fighting the darkness that comes in the night
So i push it all down, forget about healing
My mind is rising and crushed by the ceiling
While the enemy's stealing
Valuable time
Normality is overrated
This is God's will, thank you for saying it
Telling me things I already know
Is it okay for me to grieve?
Excuse me for asking
But everyone is acting
And i'm tired of playing this role
I'm tired
I'm tired
I'm tired
Of lying and crying
I'm tired
I'm tired
I'm tired
Of lying and crying
A dedication of words to you
This is Grandpa's interlude
Who knew that you would be gone so soon
I'm hearing this tune and pulled out my pen
I'm making a dent in pages to carry the people through stages
Of all the different places
My mind has taken me
Satan says God is forsaking me
I blatantly ignore the demons who are shaking me
Storing up thoughts i hate but need
Cause grief more complicated than most will see
Cause most bury it in graves along with the memories
Cursed be me
If I let your memory fade
Cause you left a legacy
Of faith
And if it's up to me
It will forever stay
Each and every day
I know you're in a better place
Till I see you again
I'm tired
I'm tired
I'm tired
Of lying and crying
I'm tired
Oh Lord, I'm tired
I'm tired
Of lying and crying
I'm tired
Oh Lord, I'm tired
I'm tired
Of lying and crying