Young Boy

Lately feelin nothing but just manic
Puff another blunt so I can
Jump up off the planet
Spacing out from worship while I'm
Purging up this canvas
I hope and pray to God one
Day my son can understand it damn it
I just wonder what's the fucking chances
For me to rid me of this pain
Enough I tuck and cram it
And he's the reason I do not give up
I'm up and standing
And never let him see my pain
And cover up the bandage
What if I said I planned you
But your mother wasn't planning
Fresh up out the jail and I
Had nothing but a sandwich
Psych meds had me fat and ugly
Something frantic
I just wanted someone who could
Love me but she panicked
Said I had her back but she
Ain't want me but advances
Said we could make it could work
But she ain't want me was I damaged?
I was sick and held it
Down enough it was bananas
Made me feel disgusted out
In public underhanded
She said a ton of stuff that got
Me took me from ya fam kid
So when I say you're mine
Just say what's up then up and vanished
They prolly think that I don't do enough
Well fuck the antics
And if they try to turn you on me son
Just understand this
I come from having nothing
Now I'm something, Look at Pam's kids
And when I'm on the road and now
You wonder where your dad is
I sacrifice so you do one for
Nothing on the damn list
And when I die you'll have a
Little something for my grandkids

So whenever your daddy's dead and gone
Don't ever let nobody ever tell you wrong
Cause I was out here working all alone
Just know your daddy did it for you young boy
And just know that I want you to be strong
Cause everything I went through was alone
That's why I had you baby in my room
I never knew my daddy as a young boy

So whenever your daddy's dead and gone
Don't ever let nobody ever tell you wrong
Cause I was out here working all alone
Just know your daddy did it for you young boy
And just know that I want you to be strong
Cause everything I went through was alone
That's why I had you baby in my room
I never knew my daddy as a young boy

Looking at you smiling while you
Play yo daddy Xbox
You're my reason love and when you
Leave I'll feel my chest rock
Never knew my real father
Shoutout to my step-pops
Talk about what I went though with
Him my nigga let's not
Nothing to identify with hanging
Like a dread lock
Head hot, like the Devil got me in a headlock
This is something way more than
Just making peoples' head nod
Writing this while drowning in some
Liquor on my desktop
When I think about you all my
Pumps will be in dead stop
Pull the pistol from my head don't
Wanna make the lead pop
Even though your mama make it hard
For me to stress nah
I won't disrespect her I'll just
Hop onto the next spot
All I want for you is just for
You to have the best watch
Even though sometimes the rogue is
What we get in bedrock
I will always be there for
You disagree you better not
I was homeless feeding you when I
Ain't have a red hot
I was in the streets and hoping
One day I don't get shot
Your mama kicked me out but she would
Still come through to get guap
I would give it to her
I'm just trying to be the best pops
And I could never be a
Deadbeat I'd rather dead drop
So when you see me on the
TV with a guest spot
And when I'm crewing on the
Road until the check drop
It doesn't matter what they think
Of me I guess not
I'm looking at your pictures rolling
Past a rest stop

So whenever your daddy's dead and gone
Don't ever let nobody ever tell you wrong
Cause I was out here working all alone
Just know your daddy did it for you young boy
And just know that I want you to be strong
Cause everything I went through was alone
That's why I had you baby in my room
I never knew my daddy as a young boy

So whenever your daddy's dead and gone
Don't ever let nobody ever tell you wrong
Cause I was out here working all alone
Just know your daddy did it for you young boy
And just know that I want you to be strong
Cause everything I went through was alone
That's why I had you baby in my room
I never knew my daddy as a young boy