Got My Brandy, Got My Beats

Sad times we're living in, a minute's silence yet again
Life is on the brink, all mine is in the ink
This was supposed to be for her, but I think it's more for me
Yeah, I got my brandy, got my beats
But I'm still flawed, tryna find my feat
Can't shake this hurt inside of me, hurting silently
Reach over to your pillow, cold enough to freeze
These walls keep memories, sworn to secrecy
They've seen us happy as can be
But how happy can we be?
They say good things don't last forever
How much further can you see?
(?) no fight inside of me
Just dry cries inside of me 'til they find their way to cheeks
Gold Rolex on my wrist, but I'm balling as we speak
Falling in too deep, water's drowning me
And my sorrows they can swim, but is there more fish in the sea?
But don't be sad for me
Still got my brandy, got my beats
I just know that I lost my best friend
And I lost a piece of me

Silence speaks so loud
Tryna drown it out
In this room full of emptiness
'Cause we've been holding on too each other
Now with the space I need
I cry and (?) that you won't see

So many lessons in love can't be taught without the breaking of hearts
Without a stain on her trust, I still feel the pain in her hug
And just when you think you're moving on, you do shots to forget you F'd this up
That's when I opened up the cupboard, and see the "S" on your cup
Guess I bet hit the club, loosen up
Grab a becks or a bumper, choose one
So crowded is the dance floor
But full of emptiness and red bottoms, (?) got 'em
All floss with more money and less problems
Can't find the real ones from imposters
Can't find the real love in these lock in's
Can't find the right words in these vodkas
Can't find my feet, now I look lost in this place
Are we supposed to be shocking?
So out of touch, play the back, watching
Tune's spinning but when's the beat dropping?
Man
I miss bringing my sound to this beach
To build a castle fit for a queen
Who now one finger skanks without me

Silence speaks so loud
Tryna drown it out
In this room full of emptiness
'Cause we've been holding on too each other
Now with the space I need
I cry and (?) that you won't see