Relapse

Running through my mind, the perfect place to hide from me,
I'm getting lost to find myself I see the irony
The beast inside my brain is getting stronger every day I try to fix all my mistakes and yet these burdens keep on finding me
Twisted minds that lie to me
Not wasting time to find relief
Might run away with all my thoughts I wish you luck in finding me
The light that i once followed is the light that is now blinding me
It’s all laid out in public because I’ve thrown away my privacy
Keep knocking at the locked door
I ain't gonna open til the demons tell me what for
I ain't gonna tell you what I've buried in the floor boards
It gets a little lonely when you're living with your own corpse
I hope that you enjoyed the show? Wait, you want an encore?
Here take all the strings I'll be your puppet when you want more
I gave my mind a second chance and now it's wanting one more?
Now it's never coming back I kicked it out the front door
I tried to keep it real instead the confidence I show is fake
I tried to keep my mind instead the pressures driving me insane
I tried to keep my friends yet I do everything to push away
I tried to stay alive but maybe deaths the only path to take
Lock me up and seal the cage
Close your eyes and turn away
Take the key and bury all the lies inside your fucking brain
I know you know my secrets better take them to the fucking grave
I know you know my demons better run before they take your name

Tell me where my head is at? I've become a monster I’m afraid I'll never make it back
I cannot deny the fact, I'm struggling to sleep and now i feel like an insomniac
My train of thought is off the track, dug a shallow grave for when I die and feel my mind collapse
Maybe I'm okay with that, I'm my own worst enemy, I'm heading straight for my relapse
Imma carry on or Imma die trying
Gonna save myself or Imma die fighting
I know I need the help I'm done with all the hiding
I know I lost my mind but doesn't mean I can't find it
Ain't no use denying I cannot hide behind it
Stuck inside this maze but I'm the person who Designed it
Stuck inside this book but I'm the person meant to write it
Stuck inside my head I feel the temperature is rising
Ring ring who's that motherfucker tryna call my phone?
Hi, it's the old you,
Why can't you leave me alone?
I still control you
Thought that you were dead and gone
The old me didn't care about the cost until it broke his bones
The old me couldn't help himself
The old me only saw the throne
The old me hurt the ones I love
And buried hate within my soul
The old me couldn't pay the bills
And couldn't find where he belonged
Spent money that he didn't have to satisfy his own ego
Ha, my head is crowded think it's time to find a new space
Ha, my soul is empty that's what happens when you lose faith
Nah, my heart is broken, time to love before it's too late
Rebuild myself from broken pieces take me to the new age
Spent my life trusting my mind but that ends today
Spent my life trusting the demons that are two faced
Spent my life trusting the people that are too fake
Chewing on their lies is gonna leave you with a toothache!

Tell me where my head is at? I've become a monster I’m afraid I'll never make it back
I cannot deny the fact, I'm struggling to sleep and now i feel like an insomniac
My train of thought is off the track, dug a shallow grave for when I die and feel my mind collapse
Maybe I'm okay with that, I'm my own worst enemy, I'm heading straight for my relapse
Tell me where my head is at? I've become a monster I’m afraid I'll never make it back
I cannot deny the fact, I'm struggling to sleep and now i feel like an insomniac
My train of thought is off the track, dug a shallow grave for when I die and feel my mind collapse
Maybe I'm okay with that, I'm my own worst enemy, I'm heading straight for my relapse