Phantom Pains
You may not see it this way
But you may thank me someday
I can't stand to play the victim
And you would never want to be a burden
I tried to carry the weight for you, for us
I felt the depths welcome my feet
I saw the light narrowing
There were times
When the sun shone so bright
Hiding the shadows behind you
And there were times they engulfed me
They consumed me
I suffocate
I can't relate to the decisions you make
The same misfortunes every time
I can't untangle every chain
You wrap around your neck
And I can't live weighted down
With the misery you bring upon yourself
Nights on the front step
Sharing aspirations
Before the waves crashed in
Pulling us under
Push away to save myself
I reach for the light
I'm letting go
I'm surfacing
Telling myself that I did the right thing
And time only knows
I hope you find the strength
To pull yourself up
I hope you find peace of mind