Thirsty

I came to under a red moon
Thirsty for water
My eyes were like shovels in the soil of the sky
Digging into the night to find solace
Burying emptiness

I was heart-broken
Vomiting memories
Because I'd promised her everything
Then I did what I could not to recognize anything

So, here I was
Marching the town
Like a priest in my rapture
Muttering spells

So desperate for tenderness
So raw from the grating of senses
The way the day drinks
Every drop of my strength
It's relentless

I was digging out pence for a length of bad whisky
Me and my friends
Or at least
The others who slumped at the bar without peace
They embraced me as kindred
But something is missing

So, I was sat there at the bar with my forehead on my wrist
Thinking I had given all I had in me to give
When I saw her, cross the floor like a
Firework exploding in slow motion
She touched me on the shoulder
And I started to live

But I wasn't ready yet

I wanted suckerpunch and numbness
The chase and the conquest of dating by numbers
The safety of keeping my distance
And feeding my hungers

She spoke of a truth that I could not confront
And she offered a peace
That my war didn't want

Because I liked being fangs and destruction
Suction and froth and disfunction

I was dreaming
Talking too much with my friends in the evenings
I laughed very loud as if I was extremely
Happy
You should have seen me

Now I knew she sensed a glory
I could feel it in the way that I was standing
Two feet taller like I'd never been afraid

I didn't want her to know I wasn't everything she saw in me
We walked each other home
And didn't kiss

We walked each other home
And