Speechless

If I'm so wrong, should I write?
Wantin' more of this life
I've looked in mirrors to find myself
But I'm still searching for light
Temporary happiness is what I
Found that I'm in but screw that life
I'll break that normal way they
Told me to live
They told me, "Get a degree, " I told 'em
"Give me a chance"
Yeah, they were laughing at my dreams but
That's a part of my plan
'Cause first they hate you
Then they love you now I'm all in demand
I owe it to all of my critics
Everything that I am
Yeah, my dream is simple be
A voice to the unheard
And change the game with every
Lyric wrote and every word
In an industry looking more like politics
Used to hearin' teachers say I
Was just a problem kid
The kid with ADD that somehow made it by
Used to never speak my mind
Now I let my lyrics fly
Yeah, I'm aiming for the top 'cause
They said I wouldn't reach it
I was raised inside that pulpit
So of course they yellin', "Preach it"
I was a pastor's kid that
Hated the label I had
Every single person I met compared me to Dad
People always tried to find the worst in me
Life under the magnifying glass
Wasn't meant for me
'cause I have made some mistakes
But know that I did
And I've been rethinking life and
Everything that I lived
There's more to life than a nine to five
I get married then I die
I've got too much potential to
Be content with getting by
While you worried 'bout a social life, I just
Got my focus right Locked inside my room
Dreams I had at 14 came to life
Always wanted this
I'm craving for this feeling
Of being something that they want
Someone that's appealing i hate the mirror
It reminds me everything I'm not
They say I've got it all
But what's it all if I am lost?

I'ma open up, let me paint a picture
If I had a thousand words, I
Promise I could leave you speechless, yeah
This is all that I have
This is all that I want
This is all that I have
This is all that I want, yeah
I told you all, I told you all
I'd take it over now, you know that we are
I told you all, I told you all
I'd take it over now, you know that we are

I'm lying if I said opinions never get to me
Heart and soul in this and
Everything left in between
I'm just a different breed
A living breathing symphony
'Cause I got all this music in my chest
So I just let it leak
I'm gaining confidence and working
Harder than my peers
While they drown in student debt
I'll just embrace my fears
I won't fall into the system
I got things to do
I know I was never perfect but
That is the same for you
I've been depressed and I want you to know
My faith has faded, lately
I've just been feeling alone so pray for me
Still I'm patiently waiting for the day
That the world will finally listen
And everyone knows my name
Yeah, I've been in that crowd been
That kid with a dream
I see these kids from the stage
Looking right up to me
I told 'em, "Look what happened"
I said I would turn my vision into hype
Buzzing now, i could kill the game and
Bring it back to life
I know I was put on Earth for a reason
I don't got it figured out
But I still know I'm believing
I got problems, I got issues
I got skeletons in closets
I've been tryna hide for years
Right behind a broken promise, yeah
Losing trust for some friends who
Say they want the best
But when I turn my back
They try to end all my success
I made a label by myself
Built a fanbase by myself
When they ask if I need help
I'll tell 'em I don't need it
I've had my mind set on
This since I was seventeen
Rep the Noise Unheard
Now everybody heard of me
Looking back, I'm thanking God for my critics
One's doubting me today will want
The life that I'm living
Everybody's got a story
I've just got the guts to share it now
Rising to the top and I
Hope I'm never comin' down

I'ma open up, let me paint a picture
If I had a thousand words, I
Promise I could leave you speechless, yeah