​want to want to want to

[Verse 1]
I spent so long
Wanting to want
To want to want
Something good

All along
I think I've wanted
To want to want
Something I should

So it's fine
If we don't align
Because I'm finally
Changing my childish mind

I think I think
I'm starting to think that
Something good should
Be mine

And I love
Being alive
I say in the mirror
Three times

In the morning
Smile so wide
Stretch out my tired body
Alright

And I try to be gentle
With my state
It's mental
Try to change
I'm not static
But damn, it feels like I'm well on my way, so

Self aware, but unchanging
Unblocking numbers, staying

I don't want to want to want you anymore
But there's something keeping me from closing the door

[Outro]
(I don't want to)
Hello, self (Want you-)
Um
I hope you'rе well (But I have to-)
I hope today is bеtter than yesterday was (Have to-) (Loved you-)
Yesterday was a little rough (But I'm sad to-)
Um (Have to love you-) (Someone else-)
I guess I'm just gonna have to work on it everyday (But I have to-) (-someone loves you-) (Until I had to-)
Like- just maintenance (Make it about-) (Sad) (And you-) (I love you but-)
Uh
I have- I have hope that today's gonna be good (I don't want to-) (Someone else-)
I think today's gonna be a good one (Want you) (Someone loves you)
And I think tomorrow will be too (But I have to-) (Thinking about-)
And I just have to keep going like that (Sad to-) (Loved you but I'm-)
Just keep counting on tomorrow always being better (Sad to-) (But I want to-) (Someone else-)
Okay that's all (Want you-) (Someone loves you)
Love you. Buh-bye (But I have to-)
(Thinking about-) (Of you)