​not abt

[Verse]
I finally did it without crying
Twenty minutes ago
It was nice but not like I remember
From when my body was so distant
Belonged to me like an instrument
Not something that I was, but what I played

And I used to think that drinking made people so interesting
Something to talk about to widen their peer's eyes
'Cause everyone loves a good shitfaced story
You've gotta stop when they wouldn't be shocked if you died

We were reading Macbeth In English
I shouldn't say the name but fuck those theater freaks
And it took my breath when Lady Macbeth said she wanted to be unsexed
I said so loud that everyone laughed, it's just like me

Yesterday I went to work in my pajamas
No one even slightly tried to mention it
Made me wonder why instead of my own comfort
I always try to be so goddamn stylish

I live my life like it's a movie someone's watching
And I always loved that until just recently
Until I realized I'm a birthday clown
Who can' t even juggle
And I'm the only one watching the movie

I'm the only one watching the movie
I'm the only one watching the movie
I'm the only one watching the movie