Lately

Lately, lately
This where I been at lately
Lately, lately
This where I been at lately
Lately, lately
Lately I've been up at night
Lately I've been thinking I
Need to get away from the demons I
Hide in my life I need to find
Lately I've been up at night
Lately I've been thinking I
Need to get away from the demons I
Hide in my life I need to find
Lately I've been feeling just a little bit off
Hate me I'm the villain when I write what I want
Crazy but I'm mainly just a man and his thoughts
Deadly when I'm aiming hit the buck with a shot
Worth a shot what I want like a shark I don't stop
But I'm lost I'll admit it independent got a vision
Indecision and a bit of feeling livid what I'm living
Been a minute since I found some peace and quiet in my feelings
Hey! But I'm back again
Pack it all away like I'm camping in
My fears and my lies zip it up you can hide
You decide if you're fine it's your mind that's a lie
Now I feel like I'm back on repeat
See me? Talking to myself like I need me
Clearly something that I'm not need a receipt
Delete all the things that defeat me
Bring me down just to see me bleed
Standing at up above looking down at me
Do you recognize now all the things that you see?
It's a mirror of the thing that that you least wanna see it's me
Do you see what I mean? Now retreat to your seat
Just sit down now and take a look around
All these burdens I found start weighing me down
Like I'm Durden and I'm certain that I'm hurting
I'm referring to the curtain of the person that's been lurking
Urma Thurman with the knife like a surgeon
In my mind on excursion see the version of the life that I need not the life that I lead
How's that for an operation
Hardly patient but I'm waiting on the time where I'm tolerating altercations
Information over laid and overtaking
Back and forth been debating
Contemplating suffocating
Sinkin deep in a space of hatred
I face it pray quick
Open the book and the read the pages
Something never done enough I hate it
What's my problem?
I don't know?
Faith too shallow?
Comes and goes
A tidal wave of emotions though, now let it flow
My minds been lying but I'm fine right now
On my grind what I'm writing right now
See my face what I'm like right now
When I fight this I'll be back in awhile
Let it all out, let it unfold
Let em all see the person you know
The person you hide but the person you show
When the curtains get closed and your minds on it's own
Lately I've been up at night
Lately I've been thinking I
Need to get away from the demons I
Hide in my life I need to find
Lately I've been up at night
Lately I've been thinking I
Need to get away from the demons I
Hide in my life I need to find
Lately I've been feeling like I'm losing motivation
Maybe I'm impatient, maybe I should face it
Lately I've been feeling just a little bit anxious
Locked in the walls with the thoughts in my basement
Maybe I take the concrete to the pavement
Carve my name and my thoughts make a statement
A fact
A matter of attainment
I'm aiming, I'm praying, I'm saying
I'm back in the game when I'm not in the mindset yet
To find quite yet the Midas touch
The finest stuff does not provide us much
When the richest wealth is in the final dust
But I'm back on the same old story it's boring I'm pouring
All of my thoughts are divorcing my mind
Into two different worlds of restoring and mourning
I'm stuck in the middle I'm feeling like Malcom
I'm feeling like how come?
The outcome of balance is searched but not found huh
A mount on the mountain
I found in the fountain
A part of my youth that I left in the pews
And I found in the booth when I stepped in the music scene
I used defeat to step on the beat and make true to see
A useless dream turned to belief
But that's how it goes
Constant repeat like the merry go
Round after round recycle old
Until the old is new that you told
To get off ya back and leave you alone
Give me some space get out my zone
Need a new place need a new home
The mind of mine is getting too cold
Lately I've been up at night
Lately I've been thinking I
Need to get away from the demons I
Hide in my life I need to find
Lately I've been up at night
Lately I've been thinking I
Need to get away from the demons I
Hide in my life I need to find