what am i doing ?

Wake up and I'm sweating now I'm still wasted
Shaken, I'm regretting now what I was saying
I hate it I know I messed up
I'll try to tape this and fix the rest up
But I'm not faking, you know I got problems
But these mistakes I make
I try, I brace
I can't prevent them
Or it's just a drinking phase
I tell myself and I say
I think I'm fucked up
I think I'm fucked up in the head
So I tell all my friends
And I'm yellin out save me
Don't hate me
Don't hate me for the shit that I did
Or the things that I said
I don't know what I'm doing
It takes me a while to see the finer things
When I'm feeling the smile fading from my face
But I'm going out wild patience running thin
And I'll go out with style when I ruin it
Plus I love sippin this cup don't want it to end
But I hate when I wake up and do it again
I just hope you don't notice
I really hope you don't notice when I'm like this
But these mistakes I make
I try, I brace
I can't prevent them
Or it's just a drinking phase
I tell myself and I say
I think I'm fucked up
I think I'm fucked up in the head
So I tell all my friends
And I'm yelling out save me
Don't hate me
Don't hate me for the shit that I did
Or the things that I said
I don't know what I'm doing
I need you by my side can you promise that you'll stay
Please believe me it's the last time but I
I think I'm fucked up
I think I'm fucked up in the head
So I tell all my friends
And I'm yellin out save me
Don't hate me
Don't hate me for the shit that I did
Or the things that I said
I don't know what I'm doing
I think I'm fucked up
I think I'm fucked up in the head
So I tell all my friends
And I'm yellin out save me
Don't hate me
Don't hate me for the shit that I did
Or the things that I said
I don't know what I'm doing
I don't know what I'm doing