Not Easy, Not Forever

I only feel present when I am alone
It’s starting to make me lonely

Can't enough sleep when it’s all I do
Why get out of bed in the morning

It’s not easy but it’s not forever

Feels like I’ve been growing this garden for years
And I guess that I do see some progress
Pullin up weeds while i wipe away tears
I am starting to tire of the process
Running outta space for the excess

It’s not easy but it’s not forever

Took a long time
To be okay on my own
Am I giving up what’s mine
If I let myself be known?
If I meet you in the glow
Of thе garden overgrown?

It’s not easy but it’s not forеver