Hurting

I hurt myself today to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
What have I become? My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away in the end
And you could have it all my empire of dirt
I will let you down i will make you hurt
I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts i cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear you are someone else
I'm still right here what have I become?
My sweetest friend everyone I know goes away
In the end and you could have it all
My empire of dirt i will let you down
I will make you hurt if I could start again
A million miles away i would keep myself
I would find a way