Cold Nights

I remember fighting with my own mind
Darkness all around me there was no lights
They rocked with me when everything was all nice
But they aint fucking with me in them cold nights
Its okay cause I know ill be alright
Cause God is always with me watching overtime
When im all alone it's like he's right beside
Even when Im out here in them cold nights
Mmm yeah
In them cold nights
Wasnt rocking with me in them cold nights
Mmm yeah
In them cold nights
Wasnt fucking with me in them cold nights

It's crazy, the people you love they doubt you and making comparisons with others you love to spite you
Thinking they know what's going on
They always gon cut you off
While throwing them subliminals
It don't really bother me, I just stay cool
Tbh if they been what I been through
It'll bring them into reality with a new view
They wouldnt last a minute if they were in my shoes
They don't ask me how I'm doing they rather assume
Even on my worst days, thought that I was doomed
Sipping on ace of spades alone in my room
Speaking poorly about me before they know the truth
That's dumb shit
Speaking all that nonsense
You trust fund baby you need to stop all that mumbling
Ain't no discussion
I was really struggling
Stayed positive cause God showed the Beauty of it
August 18 2019
Wouldn't believe the shit that happen behind the scenes
I was blacked out drunk behind the wheel tryna sleep
Parked at the Target in Sleater Kinney
Cops pulled up asked for ID
And registration to i was to drunk to speak
And sobriety test, I failed evidently
Putting handcuffs on me like it was a leash
They towed my whip, a hefty fee and I ain't have the money
But I skrrt off out that bitch, thats thanks to my cousin
In my head I know these consequences is comin
Came down like a avalanche, so much distruction
Cool people I knew when I used to be in the club
Guess we was never cool cause none of them was showing up
At my lowest in darkness drinking till I was numb
Till God showed me the light, it was way up above
And I'm not even done
You can put the triple roshōmon in front of me
And that won't even be enough
To stop me from chasing my dreams, better buckle up
Been rapping since like I5, I'm a veteran
Passing you by with my team in them Bently trucks
Fully charged to the extreme, like a lightning struck
Talking down, don't intervene when its going up
Keep the same energy with me when I had none
Cause

I remember fighting with my own mind
Darkness all around me there was no lights
They rocked with me when everything was all nice
But they aint fucking with me in them cold nights
Its okay cause I know ill be alright
Cause God is always with me watching overtime
When im all alone it's like he's right beside
Even when Im out here in them cold nights
Mmm yeah
In them cold nights
Wasnt rocking with me in them cold nights
Mmm yeah
In them cold nights
Wasnt fucking with me in them cold nights