Entropic Voyage

I cant let go of that
I cant let go of what you did
How am I supposed to
What you did to us
How am I supposed to forget
Iv let go of my body
I cant run
And
There's dirt under my nails
Oh I'm having fun
Entopic voyage
Loiter till the sun
Come out
You did this to yourself
I put the pen down
I don't even
Need to sit down
But
I just keep on thinking
How I let myself go
Move my toes
Uh
Arrhythmias
Slow me down
Try to fix me
Add it to the list of
Stuff
I gave up
Oh my mother tried
To come up
Last weekend
I was freaking
Too hard
Had to shut her down
I was major tweaking
Fucking
Reeked and
I hadn't seen the sun
Since
Last month
Now
Why you try to tell me
Iv been fucked up
I think I'd know
The things that
Iv been doing
But now I think about it
My life's
Sucked and
Id imagine
Its sorta
All my fault
Everything that's happened
To me
Oh
Your obsessed
Oh
Your crazy
Fucked up too hard
I think
I finally hit it
On the head
I think
I think might
Really be dead
My knuckles white
Veins been
Bulging
Out
My heads been spinning
Bugging
Twitching
Wired off
Every white girl
In this states
Got my
Number in her phone
And
I'm a yuppie
Druggy
Fragile
Boy
Who left my fucking home
Wanna go to college
Prove my friends
The world
I wasn't a mistake
But every turn I take
My body wilts
My credit tanks
Iv been searching for a
Reason
call you back again
Light headed
Shortness of breathe
And dehydrated
Drinking
Cosmos
Til I'm faded
Fucking terminated
My damn doc
Need a replacement
I'm a horrid patient
I knew there was a line
That I couldn't cross
I wonder if the timing
Had played a part
When you left me in the mud
Throw my shoes across
I'm gasping for the air
Nah my pen just busted
Iv let go of my body
I cant run
And
There's dirt under my nails
Oh I'm having fun
I'm out on this voyage
Entropic
Chaotic
I know that
My light dies
Out
As everything that I care about
Withers away
Feel like my mind
Hit pause after high school
Now I'm sitting back
Watching people away
I stopped growing up
I stopped being happy
Now my friends got new friends
And I'm still
Calling
Them up
I cant
Grow the fuck up
No how
Don't know how To Talk
To people
Now
And make new friends
And resume
My life
Nobody tell your what to do
That's my problem
Now I'll admit my senses
Heightened
But I wouldn't say that I'm
Alive
In the slightest
Cause
Cause were ripping away
The fabric of time
And change
Cause
Cause were ripping away
The fabric of time
And change
Iv been searching for a
Reason
call you back again
Light headed
Shortness of breathe
And dehydrated
Drinking
Cosmos
Til I'm faded
Fucking terminated
My damn doc
Need a replacement
I'm a horrid patient
I knew there was a line
That I couldn't cross
I wonder if the timing
Had played a part
When you left me in the mud
Throw my shoes across
I'm gasping for the air
Nah my pen just busted