Beautiful Again

I’m sorry I can’t put you first
I’m trying not to put myself last
I swear I’m haunted, I swear I’m cursed
Could you stand that?
This doesn’t mean you don’t hold importance
But mine is shallow
You always tell me I should ignore it
Yeah just like my shadow

I am sick
Weak in the knees
Never able to conquer my bad dreams
And what I don’t want is to hear how beautiful you are again
If I’m lost
Try to be patient
I’m wasted in my heart’s basement
Screaming I wanna be beautiful again
Let me be beautiful

I’m sorry I’m not always so certain
Of what I mean
Lose track of time and all I’m learning
Wanna wash my slate clean
This doesn’t mean that I don’t care
All I ask is you keep me in mind
It’s not so easy when life’s unfair
Or when we run out of time

I am sick
Weak in the knees
Never able to conquer my bad dreams
And what I don’t want is to hear how beautiful you are again
If I’m lost
Try to be patient
I’m wasted in my heart’s basement
Screaming I wanna be beautiful again
Let me be beautiful

When you find his head, let him know he’s lost in the wild
He’s been winging it and faking a smile

I am sick
Weak in the knees
Never able to conquer my bad dreams
And what I don’t want is to hear how beautiful you are again
When I’m lost
Try to be honest
It’s lonely in this fucking closet
Hoping you’ll see me beautiful again
Let me be beautiful
Let me be beautiful
I wanna be beautiful
I should feel beautiful