Non-believer

We walk under these city lights
We stand under the darkest nights
And I can't imagine anything more up there beyond the sky
I went to church on Christmas Eve
For the first time in a century
I sang the carols but I could not believe
This non-believer

My dad said, "Son, there's nothing else
Before you love someone you gotta learn to love yourself
Know when they're gone they will be truly be gone
So don't you waste your time"

But I wasted time in the dye I cast
I will not blame this on my past
I broke your heart
Just messing around
This non-believer

Open up my eyes to find
You've learned a few tricks in your time
And I spend my days just treading water
Never learning how to swim
My friends and family call me up
Say "You're all right, but what the fuck?"
What were you thinking
Choose your head, foolish non-believer"

It's buried deep but I suspect
There is something here to resurrect
People collide, buildings collapse
Gotta try again

I don't believe there is a plan
Feels too much like an accident