Elevator (In Memory of Joshua Nelson)

[Intro]
Yeah

[Verse]
Tryna make it out the struggle, it gets hard to level-up
Stack the cheddar up, tryna better us
Long nights early mornings, man, I'm not in bed enough
See the toll in my eyes, they be looking red and stuff
Told momma, "I'ma grind 'til I get some better stuff"
Wrote a letter with a header and I hope you read it up
'Cause I meant that shit when I said it
If you bet the bluff just know I switched the cards and I'ma make sure you regret it
See, I know just where I'm headed, I could never fold
In a world that's so cold, give the windows to my soul
In the mirror, I sit froze in reflection, contemplate my stresses tryna balance wit' the blessings
I know it's all test and I do good on those but it's been a while since school days with the bros
Yeah, it's been a while since I really knew myself
Vindication at my shows tryna prove my wealth
And it came real close when I heard my music felt by this girl that lost her brother
Showed her my song "Water" right before they lost each other
Said it hit her so deep played it for her dad and mother
Talked about it at the funeral I felt that in my stomach
Man, he had the same name as me, prolly 'bout the same age as me
And it's crazy how this life goes, he had some dreams too prolly just like those that I got
On long nights at my spot just praying that I'd pop
Then life stopped
Prayers to your fam 'cause I care for that man
If you ever need shit, I'm there for you man
Put it in a song just to show you that I am
And his spirit lives on okay, moving on
Tryna show forgiveness to the ones that do me wrong
Tryna fight my demons but express 'em in these songs
Tryna find the reason that on sleepless nights I just sit dreaming
That I just hit Nieman's, I just copped a Panamera, I just found freedom
Right hand on my chest, this my pledge of allegiance to the art
I been fiending from the start but they ain't feed me
And my heart stay bleeding need a bottle with a genie
In between having the world and having nothing
Every step mean something every breath, every sec we rushing
Never check, on our loved ones just tryna get a check
Tryna elevate, get the money power and respect
So forget, all the bullshit you done misstepped
Intercept every intersection in a second
For a friend of me turned enemy I get the weapon
I don't mean to sound a mess but that shit got me stressing
I just spill it out in writtens like a fucking best man
Excellent, next man, like a fucking X-Man
I done earned my stripes if they ain't familiar bet they heard he nice
I'm like Steph and Dell Curry, I done hit the 30 twice
I done counted dirty money, I was rocking dirty ice
Funny how it numb the pain, even with the worried nights
Funny when it's some to say I barely get the words out right
Always conscience with the words I write
I just hope you heard it right

[Chorus]
God, will you please watch over my soul?
I can't tell what's right from wrong no more
And if you take my life before I wake
Then I pray the Lord my soul to take
Yeah, Lord will you please watch over my soul, yeah
I can't tell what’s right from wrong no more
If you take my life before I wake, yeah
Then I pray the Lord my soul to take