Screaming For Help
Have you ever scream for help
Yo cries sound like an alarm
I screamed till I'm outta breath
I yell so long it hurt my lungs
Even tried to send out messages
Ain't have no luck they ain't respond
My life felt like a mess
It took some time for me to catch on
The way I learned my lessons
I had to live through right or wrong
Don't let it be long for too long
Youn get too many chances
I fucked up so many times
It left my mental in a panic
Don't have a friend group
How the fuck I tell my family
Everyday I fake a smile
So much I guess I made it my plan-b
Told em a thousand times but they still don't understand me
They gon judge me if I cry
So what the fuck I'm posted to do?
Feels like I'm gonna die and I'm just telling you the truth
Smoke weed to pass the time by
I'm mixing liquor with the juice
Say I'm okay, they know I'm lying
These people hard to fool
How come I can't get it right
I had some thought about a noose
So many suicidal thoughts
Think I honestly lost count
After my first failed attempt
I sat and cried on the couch
Tears falling down my eye
Snot drip around my mouth
Ask me why I was crying
Act like Iano what it's about
Thought I'd rise to Heaven north
But fell to Hell down south
Look I needed help now
Thought I was running outta time
I was tired of saying I'm okay when they ask me if I'm fine
I got tired of faking okay
Knowing damn well I was lying
Picked myself up even tho I got sick of trying
Had to my out my arm down
They'an see it like they blind
It's a eat or get ate game
You gotta go and rescue yoself
Cuz they can't hold this shit down
Even if you have they ass a belt
Niggas thinking for they self
They don't know the pain I felt
God handed me my cards ain't like the hand that I was dealt
Yeah I was fucked up in the past
But I needed me some help
All the problems in my life
They just kept piling on the daily
My anxiety put up a fight
I wonder if the whole world hates me
Insomnia keeps me up at night
Even tho I'm feeling sleepy
Depression I feel it in my stomach like it told me to come eat me
Hyperventilate my breaths
I even have my troubles breathing
I been screaming for help so long
Ion even think I need it
Years of pain turn me cold
Like my heart became anemic
What I'm being punished for
I don't even know the reason
Ion even think I get better
I've accepted all my demons
It's like 5 more pop out every time they hear me screaming
Got tired of running from my problems
Had to learn to set a pace
I got sick and tired of these demons chasing me all fucking day
My life felt fake
Smoking and drinking was my escape
I needed change
I had to man up now I'm no longer afraid
Spend so much time with my demons
I can look em in they face
I was screaming for help
They had me screaming for help all fucking day
I was screaming for help
Sadly for me nobody ever came
I was screaming for help
They looked at me and thought I was insane
I was screaming for help
I can care less what the fuck they gotta say
I was screaming for help
Lord knows a nigga needed me a break
I was tired of heartbreak
Wondering if it's gonna end
How come I'm the only one who struggles finding friends
How come I'm the only one who can never keep a girlfriend
Break up text hit me in the stomach
And it knock out all the wind
Plus these demons coming back
Told me they'll see me again
All these demons want revenge