memento

I found a new memento of you today
It made me stop in my tracks
Another morning 'til night I'm held captive by my past embraces
I can't seem to escape it, no
Maybe this time I don't want to
'Cause even with the pain I can remember days where I could be loved
Bit of a masochist, it's a thing I can get off to this way
Some days I wish you had stayed

This ain't no mockery, or how you see another song for you
It's just what I needed it to be

After all the light, it's dark, and I'm here singing in my hoodie which you said was your favorite
It looked better on you and yet I wasn't mad at all
Mad at all
All that's left are the colors which still pop, but dimmed out by illusions
I pick it less 'cause I know how it'd suit you
I'm not mad at all
Mad at all
As long as I did too

I don't think that this is how you'd like to have stayed
But I can't keep running in circles
Whatever had hurt us, we felt it
No, nothing can change it
No matter how it can make us so
I've had enough of a past life
Yeah, that's the way the story will go today
Tomorrow probably will change
I'll write this down so I can sing it to myself
'Cause I'll need it

No, no one else can do it for me
Need my own ways
I know it doesn't make you happy but only then the blood flows through my veins
Oh, no, it never meant to hurt you, but you know I got this

For you, yeah, I'll soften up the message like my hoodie which you said was your favorite
It looked better on you and yet I wasn't mad at all
Mad at all
All that's left are the colors which still pop, but dimmed out by illusions
I pick it less 'cause I know how it'd suit you
I'm not mad at all
Mad at all
In my hoodie which you said was your favorite
It looked brighter on you and still I can't get mad at all
Mad at all
All I see now is the washed out fabric with memories that went with it
Confused lies like we're still kids
I'm not mad at all
Mad at all
Maybe in another time or place