How Did We End Up Here

This is a poem that I wrote

"Stop falling down," or
"Try harder this time". I turned
You over but you don't give me what I'm looking for, I'm looking
For a place to dissolve this poison
I'm searching in the dark for halos that don't exist
I'm counting up nights of lost sleep
Calculating the probability of
Our intertwined fingers as
Remedies melt
Off your tongue and run over
Cracks in the pavement, oozing
Sticky shower thoughts into our heads
Like how did we end up here?
Like how did we end up here?
Like how did we end up here?
And how does the world end every night but go
On spinning the next morning?

I want this to be everything, the cure
Our futures, soft plans
Collections of stitched together questions like how long
Does forever taste on your breath
Like how did we end up here?
Like how did we end up here?
Like how did we end up here?

I want to pull the drapes on this thing and leave it to breathe in the
Dark, leave it under
Covers so these ailments don't seep
Around my doorframe and pull
What is half-born into the light, let it be
Let it alive, let it live
Let it cave in on itself and slowly
Rebuild
Chances come in hand-doings
Handfuls
Let the sun forget to practice her
Old game of never
Letting anyone rest; my fingers are warm or numb now and they remind me a little of
How you look when you're half asleep
They remind me
Like how did we end up here?
How did we end up here?