I Am

I am not the best at this
I don't always share my thoughts
I am quick to disconnect it
No autosave, I'll take the loss
Overthink a situation
If I feel like something's off
I don't know what's wrong with me
I'm well aware of what it costs
No, I am not the person that I know I used to be
I am now a mess, I don't think you will get used to me
I used to drown the voices, but now I will listen crucially
How'd I avert disaster just to turn around and ruin me?
Some of this is new to me
I am still how I remember
Look at my reflection, who is that, and how'd I lose my center?
Why am I so hesitant? I am always doubting things
I know, I know, I know, I know that I should not allow these things

I know I am weak at times
I am not the strongest person
I'll think you just tell me lies
Won't believe the reassurance
I still hear a million times
I'll be nothing but a burden
No, you won't get to me
No, that is not ok
I am, I am, I am enough no matter what these voices say

I am the one who keeps me in the middle, though
Want them to answer for something that they don't know
I am the one who will take something little
And manage to turn it to something considerable
I am the one that will push you away
I do not care about what you will say
I am the one who's destroying myself
I am the one that's not making you stay
I know that I am a difficult person, I am not quick to tell people my story
I am the type that will bottle emotions, just to explode when I feel you ignore me
I am the one who slows all my progression, I am the obstacle laid here before me
I do not want you to be like a sponge, cause I'm the one that you will be absorbing
I will always be the one who feels they're not enough
Where did I ever get this information?
What happened to me, tell me where'd I go? Can you please remove this installation?
I will never be fully convinced
That there is more to me than all of this
I'm trying but I swear it's hard
Sometimes these voices I cannot resist

I know I am weak at times
I am not the strongest person
I'll think you just tell me lies
Won't believe the reassurance
I still hear a million times
I'll be nothing but a burden
No, you won't get to me
No, that is not ok
I am, I am, I am enough no matter what these voices say

I know I am weak at times
I am not the strongest person
I'll think you just tell me lies
Won't believe the reassurance
I still hear a million times
I'll be nothing but a burden
No, you won't get to me
No, that is not ok
I am, I am, I am enough no matter what these voices say