Alone

Staring at this wall cause it's the only thing I talk to
You know all my secrets, I'd be nothing if I lost you
I reinforce you with my trust, you're there for me to call to
Plus you never judge when I'm speaking at any volume
You don't hate my attitude, do your best to connect with me
Built upon a foundation that's lacking in integrity
Yeah, I feel you sway, it'll hold, that's my naivete
You say this isn't home but it's the safest place I'll ever be
Won't abandon you, you've kept me safe, this is what we've made
I feel us kinda slipping, going downhill now without the grade
With every visitation that is welcomed, why we wind up played?
Everything is compromised, guess that's just the price we paid

How quickly they can turn on you, did it even mean something?
Stuck inside this head of mine, and I don't even feel nothing.
This is where I draw the line, you are not welcome inside my home.
If these walls could tell you anything, it's that it's hard to do it all alone

I can hear the change in you, telling me I need to get out more
But its me, myself, and I that I really need to look out for
I'm fine inside this box, I prefer my feelings outsourced
Cause all I find in here is just another lonely soul, scorched
Tortured, tormented, and always kept in the dark
I claim that I don't care but that's not what you see in my heart
Iron Man mentality, but I can't be Tony when I'm stark
A spark is all I really need to blow this whole room apart
From the start
You had my back, you gave me something to retreat to
All this time and understanding and look at how people treat you
They always take your face value, they don't try to see through
Even when I try to show them, they make an effort not to see you
I don't wanna go, why you pushing me away?
If you collapse, then so be it, the aftermath is where I'll stay
I'll just build another you, it'll only take a day
And I ain't letting no one in, give a damn about what you say