Disappear

I just want to disappear today
I just want all my troubles to go away
I just want to disappear today
But you keep on asking me if I want to stay
I just want to disappear today
But you make it harder for me to go my way
I just want to disappear today
'Cuz something keeps eating me in my heart and brain

Oh baby
Don't you know I hate it
I tell you I'm hurting
But you love to debate it
Oh baby
You tell me it's easy
But I've been fighting my whole life
And I can not defeat it

They tell me try to ignore it
As if I'm not already pretending to ignore it
All my complaining to you it's starts to get boring
You tell me it's like a cut I'll use Neosporin
And be ok
You tell me I'm ok
It's all in my brain
And then you tell me there's no shame
Whose side are you on
'Cuz you've been playing a cold game
I'll weather the storm
'Til I am numb to the cold rain, no pain

I just want to disappear today
I just want to disappear and go my way
I just want to disappear today
But you keep on asking me if I want to stay
I just want to disappear today
But you make it harder for me to go my way
I just want to disappear today
'Cuz something keeps eating me in my heart and brain

Oh baby
Don't you know I hate it
I tell you I'm hurting
But you love to debate it
Oh baby
You tell me it's easy
But I've been fighting my whole life
And I can not defeat it

When I wake up in the mornings
My hearts already racing, my palms already soaking
I can't be bothered 'cuz I am already broken
You keep on laughing like all I'm doing is joking
I just need someone to tell me that I'll survive
Boy you're ok, boy you're ok
I just need someone to hug me all through the night
Am I ok
No I ain't ok

I just want to disappear today
I just want to disappear and go my way
I just want to disappear today
But you keep on asking me if I want to stay
I just want to disappear today
But you make it harder for me to go my way
I just want to disappear today
'Cuz something keeps eating me in my heart and brain

Oh baby
Don't you know I hate it
I tell you I'm hurting
But you love to debate it
Oh baby
You tell me it's easy
But I've been fighting my whole life
And I can not defeat it