Mixed Emotions

I need a minute to think
Thinking about all these things
The things that I could’ve done for ya
Didn’t turn out how they seemed
I wanna know bout your dreams
My mind working like a machine
So many things that I wanted to say
But I never said anything
I got mixed emotions
Feelings ain’t in motion
Always wondering but never asking why
I got a lot of things that i just wanna get off of my chest
Try to push myself but end up standing by
I wanted to know how you felt
When you spent your time with me
I wanted to know the feelin
Of feeling so loved and feeling so free
But now that you’re gone and taken
I feel so alone and shaken
To shake this feeling of shame or regret
Damn I must of been mistaken
Remember when we used to talk
Talking all night until 3
Don’t you remember the good times we had
The moments that you had with me
I guess they don’t matter now
You’ve moved and found someone else
Now I’m some boy that you spoke to once
That only worried bout himself
I’m sorry that I was selfish
Now all I’m feeling is pain
Cause honestly I’m feelings helpless
Without you days ain’t the same
I wanted to tell you a number of times
I'm sorry for who i became
I reminisce all the good moments we had
But i’ll say it again and again
I got mixed emotions
Feelings ain’t in motion
Always wondering but never asking why
I gotta lot of things that i just wanna get off of my chest
Try to push myself but end up standing by

Yeah yeah yeah

Late nights, Late walks
Late drives, good talks
DNM’s from night to dawn
We’d wonder where our time has gone
I’m sick of feeling this way,
Sick of the thoughts never starting to fade
Sick of reminding myself to forget all the visions, emotions i get when i blaze
Sick of the messages still in my phone,
Hating the sayings bout stick and the stones
Breaking my bones,
Still getting hurt by your words fuck the quotes that be claiming they wont
Posty malone, i fall apart, i never said it but i just wanted you to know it, i know ive been selfish and know i regret it and now there's a whole in my heart.

I be feeling pain, i be feeling pain just to hold on
I don’t feel the same, im so numbbb
Please just hold me tight, now my pretty world is over
I dont feel the same, so alone

I got mixed emotions
Feelings ain’t in motion
Always wondering but never asking why
I got a lot of things that i just wanna get off of my chest
Try to push myself but end up standing by

I don’t wanna deal with the pain but I got
I’m sick of feeling this way but I tend to find myself still askin