Last Goodbye

I'm on the ground sitting down with these new thoughts
And I want to make a new song
Then the words come flying in my mind like a plane nose-diving then crash I get lost in a New world
I explore it I
Get called by these voices
They annoy me and make me look back at my choices
Asking me if it was worth it
Then I try to avoid it
They make me remember then I try to stop them from talking but it's never working
I start to remember the laughing the mocking, how then I was walking alone but the haters were stalking
How they'd make me a topic
And I'd cry in my room just wishing they would stop it
I needed a friend to get off it
I needed a friend
I'd talk to strangers but most of them thought I was strange at least they would listen
And I didn't care about ages opened a few of my pages made an acquaintance
Made a few friends but distance isn't the best it's kind of the end
Seconds of silence
Cuz some of them died
I feel like I'm cursed
Like I'm forced to always be alone with no one to trust
I think about all that I've done and I've said and I'm stuck in my head and I'm lost
I have a couple of friends now but really they don't fit the part
Cuz the ones that do, they go
And they never say bye

Alone in my mind
Alone all the time
Alone waiting for the last goodbye

Nineteen had a setback
Reached out but her people never checked back
She was sad and no one ever gets that
Wish I spent a little more time 'fore she left
Now I don't know if she's dead, but I know I could relate
Didn't want to hear the comments she was afraid
Something about her smile,
It was always super fake
She was going through a lot, nobody was there to say everything will be okay
Seventeen in my class
Bro super cool, everybody had their eyes on
Never said a word, but some people had to spite don't know why
And nobody could tell he too was suicidal
Well that's the thing we're always misunderstood
Judged early by the way we walk in the neighborhood
They see the smiles on the faces, all the times that were good
They only ever look at covers, never open the book
I know a couple good people I could call friends
Always for a while then it all ends
Something always happens I can never tell when
Then I'm back to these haters who just don't care
They always leave
They go and they never come back to me
Why do I care much it's probably cuz no one ever looks after me
Nobody cares instead they just laugh at me

Alone in my mind
Alone all the time
Alone waiting for the last goodbye
Alone in my mind
Alone all the time
Alone waiting for the last goodbye