Crucified

Crucified a state of mind
We're locked inside in a window pain lay down with me
This is what I win broken glass and shattered dreams
I blame it all on this empty reflection staring back at me
I'm crucified

Now tell me
How can you except another smile from a tortured soul
I believe there's a darker place I can go
But no
Rather smile in public just for show
I don't wanna tell another story
Of a broken boy
Living in a broken world
Listening to the devils noise
You will never understand
When I write these bloody lines
For you it's just another smile
Deep down I just die
When I talk about my life
Either get it through the lines
Or look me in the eyes
And try not to lose your mind
When you try to picture what's inside
You can find me drowning
Maybe Blame it on the liquor
Or blame it on my bloods cuz I thought they were thicker
But now my pain is doubling
And my mind is suffering
And I'm tired all these people
Always Asking why I talk about depression
But your walking through these sessions
It's ironic for your question
But your lying to your self
And your gasping out for help
Like your living in the revenant
It's just part of my expression
I don't wanna tell em
Iv been through the riches
Now I'm washing dirty dishes
On some run away wishes
Forgiveness is what I ask
Had to sell a couple bags
Damn I had my own reasons
And the People that I love
Why are they always leaving
Guess I will never learn
So I keep on jotting words
And sometimes I feel empty
But I'm golden in the heart man youuu should have kept me
But I'm not sayin I'm a better person
I would never leave a soul carry all this burden
Got him hurtin fallin to a worst version
Got him sippin on this bourbon he might just let one in the chamber
Let it through his crazy mind cuz his life is Uncertain
I swear I can just pull the bloody trigger
Fly to another life
Watch my wife walking down the
Aisle
Hold up it's a lie take me back to life
I just wanna run
And my feelings are so numb
Please
Try not to sing along
This is where I can be alone

Crucified a state of mind
We're locked inside in a window pain lay down with me
This is what I win broken glass and shattered dreams
I blame it all on this empty reflection staring back at me
I'm crucified