am i winning?

Am I winning?
Giving my all, try not to fall, it's a lot
How's this different
Than how you were, I'm kinda worried it's not

Never ending, I did it all, giant or small, not enough
It's beginning to look a lot like I would not ever
Be the things that you want me to be

All I ever wanted to hear
(Are you proud of me?)
God, I wish you wanted me here.
Aren't you proud of me?

Am I winning, it's getting hard, I'm kinda far from the goal
Don't you see that I really try to turn out like all the
Things I know you wanted me to be

All I ever wanted to hear
(Are you proud of me?)
God, I wish you wanted me here.
Please be proud of me.