All I've Lost

Close my eyes and count to ten
Am I dreaming? It's happened again
Fight the feeling, just knowing's enough
Don't believe it, I just need the rush
Hold my breath and count to ten, is this real?
It's happened again, can't conceal
It's never enough, so surreal
All it takes is a push

My existence has become
Denying my reality
You're not what you thought you were
And I am everything you feared I'd be
My existence has become
Denying my reality
You're not what you thought you were
And I am everything you feared I'd be

Sins of the flesh, they all wither and die
O, open your wings, fly me to death, sweet succubi

Close my eyes and count to ten
Am I dreaming? It's happened again
Fight the feeling, just knowing's enough
Don't believe it, I just need the rush
Hold my breath and count to ten, is this real?
It's happened again, can't conceal
It's never enough, so surreal
All it takes is a push

Look in their eyes and it's easy to see
The resentment they hold when they're staring at me
All the things I should be
Truth be told when I'm aiming for gold
There's no stopping me
All of the pain and the sickness and sacrifice
Fighting the hubris, the greed and the avarice
What is the cost?
Is it worth it for all that I've lost?
Please forgive me

My existence has become
Denying my reality
You're not what you thought you were
And I am everything you feared I'd be
My existence has become
Denying my reality
You're not what you thought you were
And I am everything you feared I'd be
My existence has become
You're not what you thought you were
And I am everything you feared I'd be