Satan's Virtue

I guess what
What I wanna know is
How do you know
When you're in trouble

Running wild as if I was a forgotten child
Reminiscing to take away being exiled
Medicinal to adjust the temperamental behaviour
Of being a lost soul inside this nature
Anything to tilt the thoughts of this player
The need to escape became my only prayer
The voices kept getting louder
Telling me to do something instead of wasting my time as a coward
Afraid of what the next move might be
Blurred my only vision with the hope for it to leave
Temporarily it'd be sweet
Old school rap and being fucked up was relief
But fuck eventually I realised what I was doing
It wasn't helping to just cover up the thoughts that were brewing
And when I took the blanket off of the monster
All I could see was that it's grown and I felt so alone
So I would pick up my phone and hope my homie was home
And hope a connect could help me out and handle the stress
Now I was back in the boat of feeling hopeless
And made no ground getting to that home stretch

Another day to get through can I see the end
Or am I struggling hard to where there's not a rest
All I need is a chance to really push through
But fuck I lose my head to satan's virtue
Another day to get through can I see the end
Or am I struggling hard to where there's not a rest
All I need is a chance to really push through
But fuck I lose my head to satan's virtue

Every day was just the same shit
It's so repetitive repetitive chasing after a sedative
A sedative to help relieve the thoughts of my future
Or anything that was relative I made it irrelevant
Wow, I was so blind
I couldn't help but see the negativity
As a passing over moment that would surely be
Only cured by the time that I would leave it be
But I was
Wow
I was so wrong
Every single week would be a fucking wish to see
The stress alleviate and my thoughts return to peace
But the numbing from the drugs would only extend
The sentence of my presence inside this fatal obsession
To see the life I expect to live rise to the surface and break the tension
Ahh
Yo wait
Hold up let's bring it back
Yo
Uhh
Yo I remember when the times were easy
There was no stress weighing on my shoulders what's hopeless
I couldn't even tell you
The definition of a word that had any type of negative stigma
Oblivious to the apparent seriousness of life
And all it has for us
When we exit the womb of parenthood
It's like we're trained to see the end way quicker than we should
Am I missing something
Didn't take me long to realise I was worried
Where am I going what am I doing who the fuck am I
I guessed to hide my truth so I could fit in nice
Feeling better for a little but could never feel right
I was on the edge
Questioned every step
Tryna keep my head from falling to regret
Am I on it yet
Or is downwards
Until my fatal end

Another day to get through can I see the end
Or am I struggling hard to where there's not a rest
All I need is a chance to really push through
But fuck I lose my head to satan's virtue
Another day to get through can I see the end
Or am I struggling hard to where there's not a rest
All I need is a chance to really push through
But fuck I lose my head to satan's virtue

Another day to get through
It's getting harder every time that I try to
I keep my head up
And my mind free
You know what man fuck satan's virtue

I guess what
What I want to know is
How do you know
When you're in trouble
I think that nobody quite knows
So it's a continuous fight
Every day it's fight
And for the rest of your life
You're stuck with that shadowy figure always coming at you
Always
Always coming at you