Harto Be Geeked

[Verse]
Acting like I don't give a shit, I'm good at that
Got me feeling everything I wish I couldn't have
R.I.P. to [?], they don't know the half
Tryna keep my head up, ain't no way that I'm looking back
Feeling like I'm Tomie, I'm tryna keep my head attached
Feeling worse is something I need to get better at
Living in a Hell, it got me wondering where Heaven at
Got me feeling everything I wish I never have
My mind's on pause, or it's misplaced
Cannot function in this place
Why would I wanna be like that
Feeling so damn wrong, and can't write back
I'd much rather get really lit, but I live with it
I'm just tryna focus, I'm multiplying my dividends
Maybe I'm indulging way too much into my ignorance
But maybe they don't notice I'm so high [?]
Better get a grip and hold your own weight
Stay up in your lane and find your own way
When I get that EMS the only time I changed up
Even though I give my blessings, I know I don't pray enough