Diary

[Verse 1]
My friends hate me
Or they will do
I'm really sorry
But I can't make it through
One day I fall out of fashion
One day we'll have a reaction
Don't pretend that you love me no more, no more
You're my best friend no more, no more
And every time we talk, we close another door
You fucking hate me
Well, they all do
It's no debate that we fall through
You hesitate but we all know truths
We want to hold onto our youths
Wanna escape from my youth, that's the truth
I was abused as a youth, that's the truth
I'm trying to improve, I'll set the roof down
I'll bring the fucking clown costumes just to drown in the laughter
As a matter of fact, this anger is a disaster
For a white rapper whose master
Is this weight holding down this chapter on a page of a book
That he'll never open
Diary
Diary

[Verse 2]
This journey is not worthy of the energy
I ignore the poverty, I ignore holidays
That's the way that I stay okay
I ignore the world
This shit is a phase, but it's a haze
That I used to have faith in the Lord
Now, I'm falling to the flames, no games
We will all mesh together in the flames
No names as our god proclaims
That the snakes and serpents turn us to servants if we
Smoke blunts or drink too much bourbon, it's certain
This version of a reality's a burden
'Cause a son doesn't deserve his father's anger
Monsters capture this pain that I try to gather
I have no answers, these years got me falling to my peers
Tryna hold my prayers and nightmares
Of a circle in a square, eternally somewhere
Someone's fucked up dreams had be shared
By a young kid scared and unprepared for this world
Concerned of what hes learned his innocence retracted
And granted he never had it planted 'cause he feels stranded
It's fucked
He feels stranded, now hes stuck
In a rut he'll never leave for the rest of his life
Diary