Checking In

I got a feeling that you living life unhappy Chasing empty carcasses
You’re unfulfilled because they’re not me
Walking without no aim
I hope you feeling the pain I was bearing
When you was breaking my heart
I was still caring you were all I had
In Thomasville you thousand miles away
You falling out of love with what’s his name
I thought I’ll take his place but here we are
Four years later don’t know your whereabouts
You could of been the one
Until you played me out
Now let me tell you how that felt
I never spent so many nights alone
I use to stay up late in hopes you hit my phone My mind would roam to darkest places Knowing that my name was fading
Told your ass to just be patient
Guess I wasn’t worth the waiting
But I figured out how strong I am without you
I fell in love with my soul mate
I’m glad it’s not you
I realized that you were only there to teach a lesson
And I aced the test with flying colors
Even found direction
Now I know myself as El Morado
Every piece I write Picasso-esk
I bottled stress, and made the best
Of what you left
I’m never short of breath
When getting feelings off my chest
I pray you never sleep at night
From all those days I couldn’t rest
I remember all them nights of dozing off
While you were up and studying
You ask a question while I’m fast asleep
Reply with mumbling
You laugh about it
Tell me go to bed and then I Drift
I don’t miss the times
But I must admit I reminisce
Yeah, I am not venting
I’m simply checking in
You ain’t listen that’s why we found the end
I found love and we brought children in
This will be the nail into the casket
That you lay up in

I’m checking in
I’m checking in
Yeah
I’m checking in
Yeah

This verse I’m dedicating
To the ones that celebrated
The success while you were here
And now you’re gone you almost made it
I know when the seasons change
It happens when you’re a Winter
Predict they fall before they leave
And you become a memory
I cannot share my energy
And to the ones I cut
I know you sit and ask yourself
And wonder if HAKIM remember me
Yes I do, I don’t forget
And I will a hold a grudge
No matter if it makes me sick
People try to spring back in my life
Like I am Jesus with forgiveness
Once you cross me it was nice to know you
Then I say good riddance
I know that my heart is cold
But y’all to blame
You turned me frigid
You should be on top with us
But foolish pride won’t let listen
I find so funny how I finesse
Life is tracked out
They know I do it the best
Don’t gotta cue me in
I know these snakes the best
I feel the ill intent and jealousy from a stretch
I work around the clock
I cannot speak for the rest
I’m not the early bird
I watch you sleep in the nest
Can’t bring them back alive
But I know I’m pressing they chest
You’ll get the ball from me
Just wait under the net
I got them all by a stretch
Go figure they often reaching
I been a different breed
The reason behind the leaching
I broke sequence I could never be a slave
I know if I ever take a loss
You all will throw parades
I’m an addict for that reason
I can’t let them take my place
Executing with the grace
Only keep up with my pace
I don’t like to share my space with half asses
I’m a one of one, I made my wave
Don’t follow masses
Sincerely, F**k y’all!
Yeah that’s really how I feel
Swearing is my last resort
So you know that sh*t is real
This is signed and sealed
Mr. Purple when it gets delivered
Wood have split the chips with ya
But you know that gets you splinters, Yeah

Checking in
Yeah
I’m checking in
Yeah
I’m checking in
Yeah

Eddie Key
I know you watching wherever you at
Would do it all to have you back
Whatever in fact
I mean I would trade the raps
Give all of my stacks
If that’s mean you can return
And we could sit laugh
Nd talk about the time that past
And everything I witnessed
We couldve spent more time together
Hope you shed forgiveness
I wish you could be back
So you can finally meet my children
It took your death
For me to change my life and start to live it
You often visit me when I’m asleep
I keep your wristband by nightstand
It probably helps me sleep
I’m never good with grief
I don’t cope with no bottle or no smoke
I became a workaholic
And that’s how I stay afloat
I can’t forgive myself
For being absent at the funeral
That’s regret I gotta live with
And I’m sorry bro
Ima keep this short
I’m checking in
I pray for an after life
So I can see your face again

Yeah
Rest in peace bro
We gonna get it done bro
I promise
Yeah