Alan’s just Jaded

I feed myself when i have to and boy am i glad i dont have a son i hardly ever take care of my own body but i like doing cocaine cuz it's fun

I save money by cuttin out cigarettes they smell bad and dont even get me high, boy am i glad that i dont want to molest children it must suck to be that guy

I love drinkin busch beer, some people tell me that it sucks, i also like whiskey n fancy ipas sometimes but shit man i dont have a million bucks

I find a sense of loyalty and honesty and i try n be a decent man
I get lied to and walked all over im trying as hard as i can

I love this young woman so so so so much and we dont even know eachother anymore
And we’re both honestly bad at communicating that love will put me straight down on that floor

I make too many assumptions n i'm selfish n i see situations from one side, i'm trying every day to be a better person, but goddamnit i can’t wait to die
No i can't wait to get high

I love puppers n kittens n doggos, cockroaches foxes n bears
I love the oceans and the mountians n the trees n all the other planets way out there

I wish my friends would stop doin heroin i wish my brother would stop doin pills
It sucks a million dicks that they choose to waste their lives, but they do what they will

I love slamming brutal technical death metal i love blastbeats and 300 bpm
I love gutturals and dissonant chords
It must be something in my brain stem

I'm not a very self confident person but lately i've been faking it well
Stress and depression will entirely consume me, existence can be meaningless hell

I feed myself when i have to
I tell my grandma i dont believe in god
Human existence is an insignificant perspective
Existence with frontal lobes is odd
Existing with frontal lobes is odd