Windows and Mirrors
Verse 1
Daily I stumble across the tightrope of greatness
Begging myself not to fall
As I kiss my past wounds with pharmaceuticals
Hoping to something that I could just hold on
Hiding in the shadows of broken street lights
Covering my ears during every parental fight
Some say they've had it the worst
But they don't know the half of it
They don't know any struggle but their own
As I say to them try standing up on broken bones
Try walking a mile with no inspiration from home
Try to be anything but what your past has conjured up
As they say suck it up kid cause it's never been that rough
My eyes bleeding out as I wish it were true
But a mind never forgets what it was put through
In my sickness and health looking through shattered eyes
Seeing zig zags as the sky bends
Torn roughly at each end
Holding on to the rope before saying goodbye
Blistering hands weaken as my soul dies
My heart still pounding but for what if I have no reason
Letting go of the rope falling as everything slows down
Looking back to the sky watching myself drown
Was it really meant to be, static filling my ears
Shaking myself awake covered In tears
It's been this way nearly forever
But how long can I last the weather
Hook
The world is full of Windows and mirrors
Changing your perspective over different ideas
Weather they see our pain is only their choice
But in this life the young ones never have a voice
Verse 2
Coming into this world I want you to see my heart before my skin
Ignore the past full of screaming and violence
Believe in only who I present to you not the scars you see
Don't ask how they came about
Just know that the tunnel was easy once I found a way out
Surrounded by the darkness I imagine
Broken down by the lies I tell myself
Now sticks and stones will never break my bones
Because these words eat away at the lining of my mind
Pure sanity is something I could never find
As it all caves in around me
Every upper a mountain peek
And every downer a cliffs jump
Ignore the second degree burns of addiction
Etched into my skin never to be forgotten
Stained into my family tree along side the prison sentences
Because from beginning to end I was the only witness
A child blinded by the black spots in the world
Frantically grasping towards the light in the distance
Hoping to make it out again
But for now all I can do is hope
Thinking back to when we were broke
My mother disappeared and came back with food and clean clothes
And Every time I say my father we were separated by bars and blue coats
Then they ask why I hate authorities
It's not because they tell me what to do
But because they took away the only father I knew
Breaking down my doors at anytime they please
My mother crawling across the floor on her knees
Rushing to get to me trying to avoid a distant child
But mother the alcohol and drugs took away your mind
Now remembering is a thing of your past
How old are you mom that's something we couldn't ask
Because her brain went away with her innocence
Never thinking that she'd raise a child filled with ignorance
Or two for that matter the only two she could have
Now happiness is far from her grasp
So I ask if anyone can see the end of the tunnel
Because all I see now is darkness incognito
And dirty glass too hard for me to see through
Hook
The world is full of Windows and mirrors
Changing your perspective over different ideas
Weather they see our pain is only their choice
But in this life the young ones never have a voice