Summer Storms

I just wanna disappear and start over
Lonely lost and aimless like the mars rover
Like I got three younger siblings I'm supposed to set an example for
But I'm drunk and bullish, sweating bullets
Like a fat kid who never ran before
I can't shake this feeling that I'm wasting my life
I ain't got no gold chain cause I got payments to make
And I got tuition to pay
My paranoia compounded
If you need an exit I found it
The way I watch every motherfucker in the room
I be grabbin for a knife and the dude ain't even moved
And I swear to God I'm seeing people
Running out the bushes towards my vehicle
My mind makes monsters that I can almost see as equals
My walls are caving in, I'm underwater
When you alienate your friends, you start to falter
Careful not to lose yourself in summer storms
Can't tell where I stand in summer storms
Why the fuck you can't keep your room the cleanest
Why the fuck you can't even pass class, boy genius
Now I'm babysitting Benson cause he's too drunk
My stomach can't take the amount it takes to make me forget what I am
My tolerance so high, I might as well take 35 and light it on fire
I'm only lifelike when I'm moving
Watch my life like it's a movie
Left lane living passing me by
I stare at the sky like it's anyone else's fault but mine
I'm too young to die
But I'm too tough to swallow the pills that I probably could use
If my head's a house then this shit's domestic abuse
Screaming, where your ass was at
When they pulled him off that highway
Where your ass was at
When they pulled him out that stall
You were self-obsessed, in your own head fighting
They trust you and you let em fall
My walls are caving in, I'm underwater
When you alienate your friends, you start to falter
Careful not to lose yourself in summer storms
Can't tell where I stand in summer storms
Been playing on house money for a while now
And my head gets darker with every thought that I allow
So it's bottoms up, roll up, but it's still not enough
Cause when I'm thinking I'm bleeding
Like my brain is just teething
And learning how to be a better person
Or at least I tell you that when you feel the need to ask
Like, how you been, just fine, thanks for asking
I put stuff in other stuff and make a living
Ain't no talking walls inside of my buildings
Wish I could focus my mind
Can't blame it all on ADHD after all
I'm playing shot for shot with life
Shot clock turned off and it got the ball
My walls are caving in, I'm underwater
When you alienate your friends, you start to falter
Careful not to lose yourself in summer storms
Can't tell where I stand in summer storms
My walls are caving in, I'm underwater
When you alienate your friends, you start to falter
Careful not to lose yourself in summer storms
Can't tell where I stand in summer storms
My walls are caving in, I'm underwater
When you alienate your friends, you start to falter
Careful not to lose yourself in summer storms
Can't tell where I stand in summer storms
Careful not to lose yourself in summer storms
Can't tell who I am in summer storms