Paranoia

I don’t like my name so I’ll go by a new one
Don’t want this face I’ll just let them go sew one
Not gonna stay ‘cause I’m too close for comfort
I don’t speak much so in silence I suffer
But since I’m here lonely and nobody’s listening
I’ll imagine the world that I’d rather much live in
Pretend I have money and love all around
In real life my body is just on the ground

I don’t know where I'm going
But I know I don’t want to stay here
On this ground I lay broken
Wish my existence could just disappear
‘Cause I don’t like knowing
That the world can listen and hear
If I were just alone and open
My thoughts would finally become clear

I don’t really wanna think about them
Knowing I’m here
Maybe it’s paranoia
But I’m always in fear
I don’t really wanna think about them
Knowing I’m here
Maybe it’s paranoia
But I’m always in fear

And if they hate pop stars then they’ll hate me too
‘Cause I’m not an artist or anyone cool
Can’t romanticize my life ‘cause nobody wants
To look like me, feel like me, is that all my fault?
If I seduce them, it’s just for a moment
The people won’t know who they’ve truly anointed
And yes I’ll take my fall, less graceful than a bow
If anything, they’ll take the words out my mouth

I don’t know where I'm going
But I know I don’t want to stay here
On this ground I lay broken
Wish my existence could just disappear
‘Cause I don’t like knowing
That the world can listen and hear
If I were just alone and open
My thoughts would finally become clear

I don’t really wanna think about them
Knowing I’m here
Maybe it’s paranoia
But I’m always in fear
I don’t really wanna think about them
Knowing I’m here
Maybe it’s paranoia
But I’m always in fear

I don’t really wanna think about them
Knowing I’m here
Maybe it’s paranoia
But I’m always in fear
I don’t really wanna think about them
Knowing I’m here
Maybe it’s paranoia
But I’m always in fear

And when will be my end?
And when will be my end?