A_pattern_of_disaffection

Lights out
I guess im tired
And i been fightin sumthin
Im goin silence huntin
I just want a moment, give me a second to hone it
Every day that i wake, i gotta sharpen the blade

Oh you're takin it back like it was a typo uh
I guess i was never your type then huh
Cause you only like em when they love you and then leave but i wasn't that cause i never did mistreat you
You put up your guard, defend
How do we start again
When every conversation we'rе havin ends in disgust
Cause i got insecuritiеs and i know you don't trust
But honestly baby i don't want it to be the end of us

Every time that we start to get close you pull away
And i know that i still gotta say it right to your face
But i make time to make sure that i'm around
But you never called, even when i'm not im town
Oh i'll stay here even tho i know that it's fake
And i guess that we tried but it's just not aligned to fate
Honesty and regret abstained, i think i almost loved you

Every body got an opinion, i will just shut down
Cause maybe i don't wanna hear you out the picture run mouth
And baby if i'm honest, i think that you should run now
Cause ain't it bout that time for us to get close and then bounce out
Eyes bled red but i want hazel instead
I'm sorry that i wasn't there when you wished you were dead
Axe grind, cut the line, let my neck snap
Make sure that it's taut baby won't work if it's slack

Overdose license, pure death i siphoned
Bro said stick to the tests, don't give a fuck i did the rest
Swallowed all dat shit to give my respitory a rest
I was doin shit that'd give a baby hair on chest
And no im not proud, but i escaped from that cloud
Shut the fuck up, boy them voices aren't loud
All those numbers on the internet, but you can't pull a crowd
And if we post up on this side then you are not allowed

Oh shit i gotta, lie down
Im dyin here won't you pipe down
You always said that what goes around comes back
But orbital, that's not how i'd describe my path
Cause i just looked ahead and i see distance in my past
And things ain't goin slow your just too used to movin fast
I still got a couple questions i'm afraid to ask
Understand i would but right now ima let it pass