Insomnia

ay,
i’ve been,

feeling so low,
i don’t need to let go,
but i need to be home,
need to learn to act grown,

need to learn to hide my tantrum,
this sadness be my anthem,
don’t want to go on a tangent,
but my mind’s addicted to madness,
ugh,

instability is my remedy,
find it easier to hate than forgive me,
find it easy whenever i second guess me,
find it hard to confess see, rest easy,

not easy to rest see, i can’t see,
why my eyes will not close when it’s just three,
in the am, even if i owned silk sheets,
i’d feel no comfort, trust me,

i’ve been,
freezing, so cold,
know not what the night holds,
i don’t know why i can’t fold,
upon my self and close my soul,
just for the night,
just for tonight,
want to rest, do this right,
stop my mind, turn off the light.

and i don’t want to know,
why my mind will not rest,

and i don’t really know,
why i’m here, and i’m not dead,

and i don’t want to know,
why i’ve got knots in my chest,

and i don’t need to know,
i know that i’m not the best.