Page 7: an apology

Take me to the rooftop, I wanna see the world when I stop breathing
Turning blue
Take me to the rooftop I wanna see the the world when I stop breathing
I've been a liar, I've been a cheat
Broken a heart without finding a beat
I've been a fake, trying to be
Someone I'm not, lying to me
Lying to him, her, misses and sirs
Taking my life till I'm getting it slurred
Sipping that shit till my vision gets blurred
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry for being a victim, sorry for leaving my family behind
I know that we'll never be normal again but shit, can't we just try
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, dear God I'm so sorry I made her so sad she just cried
Tears in her, tears in her eyes
Momma I'm sorry I lied
I know you forgive me for all my mistakes but I think I'm still needing some time
I know I don't tell you how much that I love you but momma, I'd give you my life
Dad, I'm so sorry for all of the lies
I thought about you taking all of those flights
I missed you, then I realized how hard that shit must've been all of those nights
If you need me, wanna see me
Better hurry
Cuz I'm leaving soon
I've been in pain, I've been alone
Almost a year up inside of a home
When I get back, I've gotta show
How much I've changed, how much I've grown
How much I've looked back
All of my life I was took back
Flashbacks of packing that book bag
Leaving I ain't even look back, fuck
I remember I was staying up in the night
Looking in the mirror staring up in my eyes
Started not to give a motherfuck if I died
Took me too long to see that just isn't right
Laying back down in that hospital bed
Cold showers broken mirrors, lost in my head
Thinking 'bout the pain I caused my mom and my dad
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
Tell me love is endless
Don't be so pretentious
Leave me, like you do
If you need me
Wanna see me
Better hurry, cuz I'm leaving soon
Sorry can't save me now