Drowning Feelings

I never felt so lost until that morning when I awoke with no one here
The strangest thing about it all is I felt it ended there
I missed the smell upon my bed sheets the touch of your gentle skin but were not here
And you do not care

As morning light rises you were out drowning yourself
Was there something I said, do you hate me
Or is it that theres someone else?

As the liquor slowly empties from my glass
I start to think that life’s too much of a task
I accept that I’m a burden
I awake with the pain of failure
That I’m no longer good enough for anyone

I never thought reality could feel so cold
My true happiness has been taken away
And its safe to say that I no longer feel secure in my own skin
I fight a constant battle of drink and death
The angst that floods through me
I just need a place to hang my fucking head

So now I’m just drowning the feelings
The visions that we once shared
I’m afraid to say that its not helped at all
But I'm still try to numb the pain

I looked at you as my saviour the one person who gave me direction
Now I’m left alone feeling empty with a heart full of rejection

How can someone you loved be treat this way
How can you look someone else in the eyes and feel the same
Its clear now we weren’t meant to be
But it shows enough now i’ve lost everything
The memories we once etched in the back of our mind will slowly wither away
As I continue to destroy myself and attempt to rid this ache

So now I’m just drowning the feelings
The visions that we once shared
I’m afraid to say thats its not helped at all
But I'm still try to numb the pain

Trying to numb the pain
I’m drowning the feelings
And trying to numb this pain

When
You
Stare
Into that bottle
What is
It
That you see?
Because i know the vision you’re seeing
Is no longer with me

I never felt so lost until this morning
When I awoke with nothing left
The hardest thing about it all is that I never did my best
Do you miss the smell on your bed sheets?
The times that we once shared just now I’m not there
Because you did not care
You never fucking cared