I Don't Understand

I don't understand but I really wanna know
I been feeling like maybe I'm just gonna go ghost
I don't understand but I just feeling lonely
I don't wanna go back to that person that's the old me
I don't understand but I really wanna know
I been feeling like maybe I'm just gonna go ghost
I don't understand but I just feeling lonely
I don't wanna go back to that person that's the old me
Promise that was the only person you were controlling
Promise that was the only person you were controlling
Hey ma it's me the oldest
But probably not the boldest
I'm scared to bring this up but honestly I just can't hold it
I hope you know I'm chosen
My girlfriend shines like gold and
My brothers were so little then but now they won't stop growing
I promise I don't hate you
Some friends well I've got a few
My heart oh yeah that aches too
My head I've over played you
I'm hurt and broken sadly
Confused on love so badly
I feel the truth is nasty
But Jesus He makes me happy
I don't need to fight to figure out who's on my side
Cause in this life I feel like I've chosen so many times
I hear you're scared to see me again and hey ma it's cool
But know my heart hurt deeply when I graduated high school
And then I realized you wouldn't be right there in the room
I'm scared to speak up more
Cause I don't wanna fall to my doom
And I don't understand
But ooh I know I fall apart
And I don't know if I have what it takes to hit restart
I don't understand but I really wanna know
I been feeling like maybe I'm just gonna go ghost
I don't understand but I just feeling lonely
I don't wanna go back to that person that's the old me
I don't understand but I really wanna know
I been feeling like maybe I'm just gonna go ghost
I don't understand but I just feeling lonely
I don't wanna go back to that person that's the old me
I don't understand but I really wanna know
I been feeling like maybe I'm just gonna go ghost
I don't understand but I just feeling lonely
I don't wanna go back to that person that's the old me
Promise that was the only person you were controlling