False Start

I guess we'll chalk it up to another false start
I thought you heard the bell
Had an eager heart
Now I'm pushin' out of the pool soaked and sorry
I guess we'll chalk it up to a slip off the block The crowd grows impatient.
They're restarting the clock
And now I'm pushing out of the pool
Soaked and sorry
How can I muster the motivation to dive in again inside of me?? Kinda wanna just quit Swimteam entirely
I guess you'll reference it some kind of lost Sunday. the kind that could be a dream
floats and fades away
cause now I'm bored in bed
Wrestlin' with reality.
A temporary escape when the world fell apart Swore I smelled your skin
I thought I felt your heart
But now i'm bored in bed: wrestlin' with reality. How can I tell what real or fake?
How much more can I take of this war inside of me? Kinda hope I just quit dreamin' entirely.
I remember well the chain link fence
Water dripping off of my chin
How is it now, just like then I'm still jumping in ahead of the rest?
I was just trying to do
Just trying to be
Just trying to love
my best.
I guess you'll reference me just another false start.