interstellar !!

Why is it when I feel fine
I can't remember what it was like to feel anything else?
Am I an alien?
Am I a freak?
Can you show me how to be?
Can you make me feel something?
Something real
Cus I wanna feel
How many times do I have to tell you you're killing me before it's an issue?
Why am I with you?
I fucking hate my life
Am I a masochist?
Feel nothing when we kiss
And how did it get like this?
I can't believe you made me lose my mind
And now you're acting like you're blind
And how can you look at me with anything but guilt in your eyes?
I gave you everything, now I'm your fucking prize
You came in my life wearing a fucking disguise
But I never lied
No I never lied
So take me to the grave
With your words
They fucking hurt
And I'd never hurt you
So why'd you feel like you could do it to me?
Am I an alien?
Am I a freak?
Can you show me how to be?
Can you make me feel something?
Something real
Cus I wanna feel, I wanna feel, I wanna feel
I never liked that you were an only child
I don't know why
But I never really said it to your face
And you never liked that kind of talking anyway
It made you feel so small, and
You never learned how to play nice
And you're always looking out for yourself first
Right?
Well tell me how's it feel now
When you're looking up at me from the ground
Oh I swear to god, I prayed every night
For you to be more like me
Why's your love not free?
You're giving it to me
Holding it over me
Honey I can't breathe
It's endless
Mother said I was enough, but
My head is feeling stuffed up with expectations
Why do you think we should be sick as long as we're together?
Oh my god
When'd I become so fucking soft?
I can't do it anymore
So sadistic but I'm torn
Oh I can't believe that I grew up with you
I'm so through
With everything I used to love
So tell me what the fuck is growing up?
Is this where I'm supposed to be?
I think my planet's far away
And they're leaving me
Am I an alien?
Am I a freak?
Can you show me how to be?
Can you make me feel something?
Something real
Cuz I wanna feel, I wanna feel, I wanna feel
Am I an alien?
Am I an alien?