FREESTYLE PART ONE

I just can't keep running away from all this pain
Way to close to insane, suicidal thoughts in my brain
I really thought she would change, but it's always the same
I sit and think about the nights but I'll take that to the grave
And even though I tried save it
You were done and I chased it
Had me sitting, wishing, thinking
That we better days and
If i could take it all back
Id still want you same
But you took shots at my name
Now shots are headed your way
Cause this is real life
This ain't no fantasy
I know this girl she only young
But she give pussy, it's deep
I know this kid he's pushing weight out
And he's younger than me
It ain't easy being young wild and free
So let me see where life leads
I'm in the back of this polo
I'm Tryna catch me a G
And if i ain't going solo
My right hands here with me
I'm on a mission to success
if you can't actually see
So put your hands up if your fucking with me

Lay a finger on my family told him bag him up
rather focus on the music pussys tryna grab me up
I ain't got time for chitter chatter
More time I just spark it up
Wont catch me at a function
I got plans I gotta write them up
2 tap, got the burner on him
Whip fast, and we swerving on him
Made mistakes and I'm learning from them
Still I'm tryna just earn from it
Yeah

Tryna focus on myself
So I can make it with the rapping
I got no time for back and forths
I got no time for chatting, I'm
17 with all these dreams of living clean
Since 13 wrapping up the beats like a damn fiend
What's the point of love if no one understands a damn thing
I was on my own and I got nothing but a damn stream
Watch I'll come up and everybody gonna ask for shit
So Ill just load the Nina up and watch me blast this clip

So I'll just sit back and I'll reminisce on better days
Got my brother phonin up let's grab the Gelonade
No matter how much weed you smoke it ain't gon take the pain of
Living day by day they don't know your story
They just know the name
And everyday that goes by I swear it's all the same
They're tryna take me down a level
I got a smarter brain
Man I can't change the fact that your just stuck up in your ways
I just stick in my own lane
Fuck what you lot gonna say

I wonder why the fake keep on levelling
I wonder if I had to took the time just to trust her
Would I settle in?
Dark times i was stressing in
I was looking for a stairway to heaven but the devils in
Look up in my eyes you can tell I'm a troubled kid
Father left for alcohol now everyone's full of shit
Don't wanna leave but I'm mentally struggling
Sick of giving up my all and then ending up fucking it

Look, bridges burn, and some lessons get learnt
Some tables turn, take your eye off them and watch how they turn
Man I'm concerned, you ever sat down and questioned your worth
Like as if they took your heart and buried it in the dirt
See I'm, just a little kid up in this big big world
In this little town where loyalty is nothing but a word
And it's hard to put your time into what you call your girl
Cause little do you know behind your back she's fuckin the world