8 Bits of Disappointment

I lay awake at night and I process all my feelings
I'm just sitting in my bed and looking up at the ceiling
And I know that we're all human but I don't know how to do it
When the people closest to me aren't helping me get through it
Thought that maybe if I open up then I would get support
But no matter what I say or do it never gets absorbed
When I feel like no one's listening I question my rapport
And it's hard to keep on going when you always feel ignored
But the reason I fight this
Is 'cause I really think
That the people that I get
To love are on the brink
Of collapse and if I can
Support them any way
Then no matter the price is
I'll take on all their pain
In the hope that if I fall
Off then they might help me
It's not often that I call
But lately I'm unsteady
And I know that I can't be
The only one who's suffering
So let's help one another out
Then we can start recovering
What's the point of only living for yourself
Have you ever tried to live for someone else
If you're down and you don't know what to do
You need to think of the people who count on you
What's the point of only living for yourself
Have you ever tried to live for someone else
If you're down and you don't know what to do
You need to think of the people who count on you
I've never been a fan when conversations are heated
I'll never understand the like it or leave it treatment
I wanna leave the pain but feel that I cannot beat it
Does it mean that it's my fate, I can feel myself retreating
What would really change if I decided to go leave the Earth
It's so agitating when I'm treated like I am the dirt
Is it worth it if I open up and show you all my hurt
Got no choice to open up 'cause if I don't it will get worse but
I'm having a hard time
Expressing my depression
And no matter what I find
I don't know where my head is
A disaster in my mind
Need somebody to vent with
It don't matter if they try
If I'm still feeling helpless
But I'm hoping that they don't
Drop me, know I need 'em
I appreciate my folks
Patient, see the evil
That I wrestle with, I won't
Beat it very easily
So when I come out singing l will thank 'em for the victory
What's the point of only living for yourself
Have you ever tried to live for someone else
If you're down and you don't know what to do
You need to think of the people who count on you
What's the point of only living for yourself
Have you ever tried to live for someone else
If you're down and you don't know what to do
You need to think of the people who count on you